I shall remember this.. Huhuhu..

Good sharing Azreen, my friend back in UiTM.. Saw her FB status today on this..

Yes, keep telling myself to stay calm everytime the kids terover rindu mummy and daddy waktu siang.. Kadang2 bila balik jer, time tuh la bergaduh sesama diorang nak mummy la, daddy la, nak games la, time tuh gak nak makan ice cream, and bila tak bagi, merajuk and kadang2 boleh gak nak nangis and all.. Sometimes memang berjaya sabarkan diri, mengenang tinggalkan dua beradik tuh seharian, takkan la bila jumpa jer mummy, mummy terus tukar jadi singa.. Hahahaha..

BUT, i'm not perfect.. Ada juga fail bab tuh.. Hahahaha.. With Hessa, i shall tolerate lagi, i gave this 'Are you kidding me-look' at her jer, terus dia frozen.. But, i tak consider them having tantrum, just the way they express themselves bila gaduh is like yelling at each other.. Huhuhu.. Unlike Aidan, who is now able to give reasons and excuses, bila mummy marah jer, he would do wonders like begging some more (tak habis2 saying 'please, please mummy), give reasons bila gaduh ngan adik ("Aidan nak buat dulu, adik tak tau!!"-marahnyer kat adik) and sometimes give excuses bila suruh kemas balik toys, he went ("Mummy, adik la kemas, Aidan penat. Aidan tak larat..") Yes, ada saja reasons, excuses nak bagi.. Mind you, memang he gave me all that, but bukan selalu Aidan terlepas.. Hahahaha.. Kalau penat nak kemas balik, memang tak boleh la proceed with other stuff, sampai dia kemas sendiri.. Excuses will always be excuses, but sorry sayang, that one i can't tolerate..

So, bile terbaca jer this short article or message, it's like a slap on my face.. Really.. This morning in the car, Aidan kept on expressing tanda2 tak puas hati sebab tak boleh stay kat rumah.. I told him that i need to go to work, and that bila weekend baru boleh stay rumah.. Ofcoz he didn't really understand everything that i said, except for NO stay kat rumah, MUMMY and WORK!! Terus serba tak kena, nak marahkan adik, nak berebut daddy as i was the one who drove, and macam2 lagi.. I told hubby to ignore him, reason being just to let him calm himself.. But lama la pulak si anak tuh nak calm down.. Hubby told me nampak kesian plak tengok dia, mesti dia rasa macam tak disayangi.. Hahaha.. Trust me, he knows that we love him, just that he can't accept the fact that we just need to leave him, like it or not.. At that point, feeling like kurang disayangi is normal.. But, ofcoz i asked daddy to grab him and give him a BIG hug balik! Tuh pun tak abis lagi, masih teresak nangis, pastu continue nangis, back to esak2 nangis, and bila sampai office, nampak mummy turun, sambung nangis balik.. And i had no clue what to feel.. Sometimes, siap boleh bye2, kiss2, hug2, siap "YES!!!" mummy pegi work! And ada hari siap lah air mata berbucket2.. *sigh..

So lepas ni, kalau yang mummy kena berkeras, i shall give my reasons and pray that you understand.. I just need to pay some more attention to you, or in other word, distract you for feeling whatsoever.. InsyaAllah.. :)

Grocery night:

Mummy: Okay, i'm done! Sudah.. sudah.. jom! (after i got myself mix vege for my pasta goreng)

Aidan: Belum sudah lagi, mummy.. Belum..

Mummy: What else? Nih jer mummy nak beli today..

Aidan: Mummy, nak tuh, boleh??

Mummy: Okay, tuh jer kay??

Aidan: Thank you, mummy.. Dah, jom bayar, dah sudah.. dah sudah dah..

Mummy: Nih saper nak bayar nih, Aidan nyer chocolate nih?

Aidan: Mummy la.. Aidan takder duit..

Mummy: >..< (chek cakap macam orang tua la chek.. :P)