My last goodbye!

I just got a call from my sis.. Happy pun happy, sedih pun sedih.. Hahaha.. Dok emo sorang2 kat depan lappy nih.. Huhuhu.. Serba salah sungguh.. Tapi mengenangkan yang bakal tiba, ooooh, kenalah sacrifice apa yang patut.. Kasih ibu tuh tak ternilai harganya.. Mungkin yang lebih baik akan menjelmaaaaaaa..

Dok memberontak jer dalam hati ni.. Tak terkira nak menjerit.. Hahaha.. Pastu nak gelak puas2, bukan suka, bukan duka.. Haiii, tak tau nak kata apa lagi dah.. END!

p/s: Thanks Kak Chik! Ati, it suits you well.. Achu sayang sgt2 tau.. Jaga elok2 kay?? *Huhuhuhu! Thanks for the support!

2011 is just around the corner, so 'bubye' 2010 !! (with kisses and a great big hug)

Dear 2010,

You are definitely one exciting year for me, 2010! You gave me joy, tears, laughter and a whole pack of memories.. I cherished you, 2010, and i definitely gonna miss you, since you've taught me a lot about life, love, what to expect and not, from everyone or anything in the world.. You encouraged me to be strong, patient, and wiser, in making my decisions for myself, my family, and especially for my darling baby..

You witness not only him in growing big, and become this boy with beautiful heart (inside and out), but you witness my growth too.. ( and hehehe, yup, my tummy too.. :P) We learned a lot from you! And we shall use all the experiences that we have got for our own good later on.. We owe you big time, 2010!

Now, it is time to say good bye.. We have more or less like 2 weeks to still see each other.. We are definitely nervous, as we have no idea what is in store for me and my family later next year.. We hope and pray for the best.. We will cherish the good ones and we will try to be stronger to face all the challenges that life has got to offer us.. InsyaAllah, we will make it.. One fine day.. The day that we shall smile to the world, and pat ourselves for a job well done, for being so patient in going through this challenging life together.. :)

IsyaAllah.. 2011 will be a blast.. Let's pray together.. :)

Enough of the sad2 experience we had in 2010, and let's find out the best part of it!!

2010's best moments :

1. I got to witness Aidan's growth, and his remarkable progress.. Not one day that i missed seeing my baby's handsome face.. Alhamdulillah.. :) From menyulur, merangkak, to his first step.. Wahhh, Allah is GREAT! :)

Vroom.. vroom.. :P

2. Got to spend my birthday with my family.. Yup, the first time i celebrated my birthday as a mommy, and Aidan was there, when i ate my birthday pancake.. He was drooling sebab teringin.. hehehe.. :)

I miss these moments.. :)

Habis tudung mummy Aidan tarik, kan dah senget2.. :P

3. The renovation for the house started, and we were so excited for sure.. Yup, previously, kitorang tumpang MIL's and my sis's.. Hehehe..

4. Got to snap our first pre- raya pic together as a family.. Should be a tradition for my family, InsyaAllah.. :) And ofcoz to celebrate it together for the first time.. :)

5. Got to prepare things for my son's birthday, and i just love all the projects i did for him.. We have quite a few projects done, and coming.. :) I organized everything myself, and i felt so content! Everyone seemed to enjoy the party and yes, ada few things yang last minute tak boleh nak put up sebab hujan and all, but for the rest of the party, i think it was awesome.. :)

6. I got to know that i am pregnant to my baby LOVE! Okay, gap tak jauh, since Aidan was 9 months old at that time.. But we were sooo happy, Daddy, Mummy and Aidan.. :) Yes, i got pregnant 2 years in a row.. Huhuhu.. Jangan tanya how my tulang belakang works.. Dah sakit sana sini.. Huhuhu.. And now, got to know that she's a ladayyy! (girl *wink2) Double joy!



7. Got the green lights from the contractor, and yup, right after raya, we moved in.. Hoorayyy! :)

8. Got to sell my car Z4 (lega! what a relief) and thanks to Abang Syed sebab make it easy for us, he bought it from me, since with my life right now, memang dah tak sesuai sangat for me to drive the car.. Alhamdulillah.. but ofcoz ni pun jatuh dalam perkara yang i sedih berlaku in my 2010.. I love the car sooo sooo much okay?? Huhuhu.. Nangis gak arr, since banyak kenangan with the car, and ofcoz kenangan mostly masa keje.. My ultimate transport to go about buat sale.. Huhuhu.. InsyaAllah kalau ada rezeki, later.. But for sure tak nak dah kete camni.. Hahaha.. I need a car to bring MY KIDS around plak.. So, kete tuh kena la scream 'mak nak bawa anak2 jalan'.. Hehehe.. InsyaAllah..

Miss you.. Huhuhu.. :P

9. Ohhh, got to protect my son, through PruChild plan, with Prudential.. To my baby.. Mummy loves you!

10. Got to bring Aidan here and there, and let him experience one exciting childhood.. Alhamdulillah.. :) Tak der la travel jauh2, but the memory we have created together is priceless.. :)

All in all, yang ni jer yang mummy leh update dulu sebab yang ni jer yang mummy ingat.. Kekekeke.. But seriously, i just love 2010! Ahakssss, serious, not being sarcastic, ofcoz the challenges are there, but i've got one smart boy that surprises me with his new talent day after day, and i got to know that my LOVE is on her way, so why should i complaint?? Hmmmm.. Kan?? Kekeke..

Friday Mood.. :)

I just love Maher Zain's songs.. Rasa nak nangis jer dengar lagu2 yang dinyanyikan, and memang mudah tersentuh hati ni.. Hehehehe.. Bila rasa down and what not, we just need something to make and keep us strong.. Besides prayers and all, through songs also, boleh dapat rasa ketenangan, keinsafan itu.. AllahuaAkhbar!

To my beloved brother in law, Caleb Lennon, i am sure you will love his songs.. Start downloading and uploading!! Hehehe.. :) Tell me what you think of all the songs!! :)

His baby dayssssssss.. panjang days tuh kan.. haaaa, maksud kata dah lama dahhhhhh.. huhuhu.. cedeyyy.. :P

To all mothers around the world.. :)

" It's not how much money you spent on them,

It's how much time you spent with them,

It's not only where you bring them about,

It's your 'presence' in their life that counts,

It's not how you think you did well that matters,

It's how much they feel and agree that you're the best mother that they've ever had!"

p/s : Let's create as much memories as we could with our kids! Time flies.. :)

Last night when i put Aidan to sleep, i was admiring Allah's creation, my kicik, and i saw the changes of his size, his bone structure, his hair (yang makin banyak tuh.. hehehe), his skin (haaaaiii laaa eczema!) and i felt really blessed, and scared.. Scared?? Yup, i know that time flies and scared to think that bila i sedar jer nanti, my kicik dah besar rupanya.. Oh man! I don't want to miss anything, like at all.. And i know i will miss this moment.. The moment that i still call him baby, boy, Cik Dan, Dan Dan mummy, yo bro! Hehehe.. So, a shout out to all mothers, let's enjoy this moment, and create as much memories as possible, you will miss it one day.. Huhuhu.. Yup, you may got pregnant again later, but ofcoz setiap anak lain2 right?? I won't get 'Aidan' again later.. Oooh ya, my Aidan is one of a kind! Ahaks! :P

This is the reason why i like to come up with this project and that project with Aidan and yup, i am talking about tangible things, sebab that's the only thing that will remind me of him, yup, the memories will still be there, ofcoz!.. But something for me to hold and have a look at later on.. Masa tuh, tah2 i dah berkedut lima ribu.. Hehehehe.. Lima ribu jer?? Nampak sangat kan, tipu.. Hahaha..

Aidan at 11 months old.. :)

Hiii.. you can find us at 'Tweet tweet' also.. hehehe.. Mummy's tweet tweet : Sara_tclr!! :) Yer, twitter lorrrr.. :P Hehehe..

My 34 weeks sad2 story..

Hello all, Alhamdulillah, today dah masuk 6 months i pregnantkan baby LOVE, and how time flies, kan?? Sedar2 jer nanti, i dah tunggu hari.. Hehehe.. Can't wait?? Oooh, dah tak berani nak guna that statement, 'Tak sabar'.. Sebab last time, bila i selalu guna that statement, my Aidan dalam tummy pun rupa2 nya tak sabar gak nak jumpa mummy and daddy.. Hahaha.. Last2 Aidan keluar awal.. Hehehe.. Alhamdulillah, walaupun Aidan keluar awal, he was a healthy boy, cuma berat yang tak berapa cukup, and size yang agak kecil.. :) Other than that, heart condition, and so forth tak der apa2 masalah.. How i thank Allah, and everyday asyik pray for him.. Tengok anak sendiri dalam incubator and serba serbi keliling Aidan yang memang jauh lagi besar dari my baby, bagi i rasa sayu tak ingat nyer.. Huhuhu.. Sedih2, but tuh cerita lama, and now, Aidan bukan main lasak lagi, and dah pandai itu ini.. Still, bagi mummy sebak plak, sebak sebab kenangkan his progress yang buat mummy sentiasa proud dengan dia.. hehehe.. Mummy yang emo! Kakaka.. Buat camner, it's in my blood! :P Kekekeke..

Okay, as i was reading on my Love's progress at 24 weeks ni, i came across few things yang i should consider, and baca like really thorough, sebab it happened to me before, and actually can happen again, just that, i kena bersedia and take few precaution steps, and maybe take extra careful of what i eat, my activities and stuff.. Yup, it's about Preterm Labour..

I pray so hard that it won't happen this time, and InsyaAllah, i am hoping to go for normal delivery this time.. But, i think i wanna share about what i read just now, just in case ada few mummies out there nak tau on this topic on Early delivery or Preterm labour!

Check it out!

3 Questions About...Preterm labor

More than 12 percent of babies in the United States are born prematurely (before 37 weeks). About a quarter of these births are intentional, meaning that the medical team decides to induce labor early or perform a c-section because of a serious medical condition such as severe or worsening preeclampsia or because the baby has stopped growing. The rest are known as spontaneous preterm births. You may end up having a spontaneous preterm birth if prior to 37 weeks you go into labor, your water breaks, or your cervix dilates with no contractions.

While there are some known risk factors for preterm labor, such as having certain genital tract infections, placental problems, or cervical insufficiency, in many cases no one knows what causes a woman to go into labor before term. So it's important for all pregnant women to learn the signs of premature labor and what to do if it happens to you.


Q1.
What are the signs of preterm labor?

Call your midwife or doctor right away if you're having any of the following symptoms before 37 weeks:
• An increase in vaginal discharge
• A change in the type of discharge — if it becomes watery, mucus-like, or bloody (even if it's pink or just tinged with blood)
• Any vaginal bleeding or spotting
• Abdominal pain, menstrual-like cramping, or more than four contractions in one hour (even if they don't hurt)
• An increase in pressure in the pelvic area (a feeling that your baby is pushing down)
• Low back pain, especially if you didn't previously have back pain

These symptoms can be confusing because some of them, such as pelvic pressure or low back pain, occur during normal pregnancies too, and early contractions may just be harmless Braxton Hicks contractions. But it's always better to be safe than sorry, so call your midwife or doctor right away if you're experiencing anything unusual.


Q2.
What should I do if I think I'm going into labor prematurely?

If you have signs of preterm labor or think you're leaking amniotic fluid, call your practitioner, who'll likely have you go to the hospital for further assessment. Once there, your medical team will monitor your contractions, watch your baby's heart rate, and test your urine for signs of infection. A doctor or midwife will do a speculum exam to see whether your membranes have ruptured. She may swab your cervix and vagina and send one sample to the lab to check for an infection and another for a fetal fibronectin (fFN) test. This test analyzes your cervical and vaginal fluid for the presence of a protein that helps bind the amniotic sac to the lining of your uterus. Between 24 and 34 weeks, elevated levels of fFN mean that this "glue" is disintegrating ahead of schedule (due to contractions or injury to the amniotic sac). A negative result means that it's highly unlikely that you'll give birth in the next week or two, which can set your mind at ease and allow your practitioner to hold off on treatments that may prove to be unnecessary.


Q3.
Will my baby be okay if he's born early?

The closer your baby is to full term at birth, the more likely he is to survive and the less likely he is to have health problems. Premature babies born between 34 and 37 weeks generally do fine, although they are still at higher risk for short- and long-term problems compared to babies born full term. On the other end of the continuum are babies who are extremely premature: These days, some babies born as early as 24 weeks (or even a bit earlier) may survive thanks to advances in neonatal care, but these extremely preterm infants require significant medical interventions and long stays in neonatal intensive care units (NICUs), and the survivors often have serious long-term problems.

Ya Allah, full term please.. Amin..

Missing my Pak! :(

Seating alone in Starbucks (hmmmm, the only place here that has wifi).. Alone.. Hmmm, they are playing this one nice song, old song, cabaret songs.. I am feeling calm, at ease..

A lot of things that i am thinking now, about life, love, future and past.. :) How i wish i could turn back time, and maybe this time i choose to go back to my childhood days.. Have my arwah father with me, pay extra attention to him, my mom and my family (my sisters and brothers).. Be a good daughter to him and my mom.. Always pray for them, be with them, love them more.. Rasa macam tak pernah cukup rasa sayang pada both of them, walaupun i love them soooo much, unconditionally..

My late father was a strict man, but deep inside, apa2 jer yang dia advice or said was actually true, and for the best of his kids.. Tapi those days, i tak really nampak 'why, and why again' my dad said no to this and no to that! If he was here today, i know he would still be overprotective towards his daughters.. And he won't let you drown.. That's for sure.. 'Ohhhh pak, how i miss you!' :(

I come from a big family of 12, and being the youngest, everything is quite easy, sebab dari kecil lagi my sisters and brothers help those yang masih sekolah ni.. Baju raya, baju sekolah, buku2.. How i thank them all.. But, masa tuh, tau pakai jer, and excited every year, nak tgk baju apa my sister, Aishah bought me.. Yup, never question, naper beli this baju and that, or tak pernah tak suka what i got.. In short, i just love what she got me, every year.. But now, i just don't know how to pay her back.. Up until now, she would help us all, saper2 adik dia yang in need.. One beautiful person inside and out..

Alhamdulillah, i love all my siblings, and yes, there are times yang masing2 with own point of view, but eventually, everything is back to normal again.. Air yang dicincang, takkan putus.. Adik beradik, takkan putus.. We care about each other in our own way.. Some of my sisters bukan jenis direct bertanya, but they do the thinking part, discuss and the rest would do the talking. Yup, they do care.. I do care to listen and so the rest of us.. :) Ya Allah, thank you for letting me part of my family now, and there's no word to describe this feeling i have inside for each one of them..

Single times, married now, teach me a lot about life, and i am sure, whatever happened today has it's reasons, and the reason is for me to be near Him, and accept what He decided for me with an open arms, and insyaAllah, something bigger or better awaits me in the future.. I don't know.. Not material things, but maybe i would feel more content, complete, happy, peaceful, and calm.. And maybe be blessed with more children! Hahaha.. Yup, 2 would be enough for this coming 10 years kot.. Hahaha.. Kidding! Whatever it is, i will start this journey of my life today, with Alhamdulillah, and InsyaAllah, one day, one sweet day, i will smile, and smile, sampai you can see a smile on my face, smile with my eyes (as Tyra Bank's always say in ANTM! hahaha) and smile with my liver (yup, this one i got from Eat, Pray and Love- love JRoberts, super stunning lady).. :)

InsyaAllah.. :)

p/s: Pak, i miss you! (al- fatihah)

A helping hand.. :)

Kedah Perlis Charity Collection Drive With

Meet JJ and Ean from Hitz.fm, as together with The Selangor Red Crescent Society, they will be holding a charity drive in aid of the flood victims in Kedah and Perlis. If you have items such as usable Kain Pelikat and Hygiene Kits such as soaps and toothbrush come over to The Curve on Saturday 20th November from 10am to 2pm. Your small help can make a big difference.

Date: 20th November 2010
Venue: The curve (in between curve and Tesco)
Time: 10am - 12pm

Info: Taken from www.hitz.fm

p/s: Yesterday, we have sorted out things that might help those in need.. Nothing much, but we sincerely hope that it helps.. :) InsyaAllah.. :) Jom, jom, jom..!

Sweet Pia ! Congrats !! :)